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Am I doomed to be a bag lady?

I just rode the crazy train of emotions. I played my fear all the way through the scene of me homeless and sleeping in a dumpster. This is my biggest irrational fear that I have drummed up and cannot seem to let go. I am not even close to being in a position of being homeless and I have a job. Yet‚ this is where my delusional wheel decides to spin. I have been close to not having any money to pay my rent when I was single and horrible with money. I eventually turned it around when my rent check was about to bounce and I had enough of riding the edge. My sane mind knows that I will not be homeless because I strap on my big girl pants and go to work now. Yet‚ when I am in fear‚ my tornado thoughts dive into me ending up a bag lady. My husband laughs at me as I tell him my crazy thoughts. Thank God he loves me enough to tell me I am wicking it up and I am not in reality.  The moral of the story is when my emotions have subsided; I know I will not be homeless. I turn my will over‚ and let go and let God.